attheriskofembarrassingmyself:

I had this idea while I was walking my dog.  In fact, that’s where I get most of my ideas whether they are good or bad, so it’s a wonder I don’t spend basically all my time at one end of a leash.  I know it’s about 6 days late for a resolution but I’m nothing if not a consummate procrastinator.  Also I was stuck in the Bay area until yesterday so I have a (flimsy) excuse.  But anyhow, this is my idea for 2012: Do something that is potentially embarrassing.  Every day.  I’ve hemmed and hawed over that every day thing since I cam up with idea about 40 minutes ago, but I think it’s an important first step in the growth that I’m looking for with this idea.  Every day.  

I should explain that by “do something potentially embarrassing” I don’t mean post videos of myself attempting advanced yoga moves or confessing about that one time that I wrote my number on some guy’s chest at the Cha Cha.  I mean things that are potentially embarrassing but that I believe will ultimately make me a better and happier person.  Things like, asking people I trust to read my writing.  Things like, trying to get to know my friends better.  Things like, wearing a crop top in public.  I’m starting this today, with this blog post.  It is potentially embarrassing because:

-Unless I’m cooing about puppies I’m rarely sincere and honest in this medium

-A lot of parts of me are telling me that this is a really lame thing to do and no one will read it or care

-I could very very easily completely fail at this either by giving up or by just not doing the things I want to do

But I’m looking at it this way: I’m 27 years old.  I don’t have a job.  I’m pretty broke.  I’m behind on my therapy bills.  I mean, what do I really have to lose?  

Also, the domain was available so I pretty much had to.

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